Letters to Kristofer

YOU WILL BE MISSED

BrendaNovember 11, 2008 @ 12:18 am

Dear Kris,

We went to church this past Sunday. It is so hard for me to sit in the church. I don't understand why but I feel like my heart is breaking all over again each time I sit there. This past Sunday I thought I might have to leave several times but I made it through the entire mass....you must've been sitting with us. Dad, said we didn't have to go there anymore if I didn't want too, but I know we need to be there. Sometimes I want to scream at God for taking you from us so early but I know that wouldn't do any good and that all things happen for a reason...even if we can't see the reason for a very long time. I miss you more with each passing day. Dad said that he heard that the second year is the worst. I thought it would get easier, but it doesn't. I know that you probably know how hard your dying has been on all of us. Maybe you could ask God to take away all the resentment and hurt feelings so that we can become a whole family again. We really could use your prayers too. We visit your grave each week. I never thought I'd ever see your Dad in a grave yard but he looks forward to visiting you each week. He misses you alot, Kris. We took Andrea to the airport on Saturday. Afterwards we stopped at Olive Garden to eat. It was really strange but the boy who was our waiter looked like you from the back, and when he turned around I swear he looked like you around the mouth and nose. He wore his hair like you and it was just about the same color. It's strange how when you lose someone you love how you see them in so many people. Maybe that's God's way of comforting us in our time of sorrow. I know that I feel so much better after this happens. The weather is cold tonight and it is raining. Our kind of weather!! Dad said it may hail tonight too. When he told me that my first thought was, maybe we should go put a blanket over your headstone to protect it. He would've probably thought I was nuts so make sure nothing bad happens to it tonight for me. Do you see us visit and do you see us clean it every visit? I like to think you do. The girls think that you are sitting on top and thinking that it's really a cool headstone. Well, gotta go but will write soon. I love you Kristofer and I miss you each and every day.

Love, Mom


BrendaNovember 1, 2008 @ 11:45 pm

Last weekend we cleaned out the shed in the back yard and we found the plaster handprints I had made of Danielle and Katie a few years ago. Wow they have changed so much. I wish I had made one of you before it was to late. It was really a comfort to be able to run my hand over theirs. Do you remember when you let me put plaster strips on your face to make a mask for an art project at college? You were such a good sport about it! I don't think anyone else would let me use their face for a model so you let me use you. Melissa had that mask for years, but at some point she must've gotten rid of it. How I wish we could find that mask now!!It would be wonderful to be able to see what your face looked like so many years ago. Everyone young and old should make a plaster handprint of their own so that if they die their loved ones will always have that hand print to remind them of you. I will make some of the girls and Dad and myself.... Love, Mom


MeNovember 1, 2008 @ 1:12 am

Happy Halloween Kristofer! I can't believe were already into Nov! Wish you were here for all the holidays! Its just not the same without you here! Hope you are having wonderful days in heaven! We love you!


BrendaOctober 31, 2008 @ 5:21 pm

Kris. today is Halloween!! I remember how much you loved this holiday. I can still see you trick or treating and using a pillow case to hold all your candy!!! Andi was teasing when she asked if she could go trick or treating this year and I told her that she was a little to old. She said you let Kris go and he was to old!!! Couldn't argue with her there!!! Hope Halloween is a wonderful event in Heaven! Happy Halloween Kristofer!!!!Love, Mom


BrendaOctober 24, 2008 @ 11:42 pm

Thanks Kris. I finally saw you in my dream this morning. I was relieved to see you so happy and at peace. You looked great! Who was the little girl playing on the floor that you were watching? She was beautiful. Why was I taking picture's of her? It was wonderful to see you looking so content and pleased. I love you....Mom


BrendaOctober 20, 2008 @ 11:48 pm

Kris,

Can you believe that it's already been a year that you've been in Heaven!?! It was a year ago today that we laid you to rest. It doesn't seem real. It's hard to grasp that we will never see you again , never touch you again, or hear your voice. Your family is having such a hard time and we could all use alot of prayers from you. It must make you feel very special when you visit this site and see how much you are missed and loved. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and miss you, or love you. I wish we could turn back time. I wish we had more time with you to tell you how much you are loved. You will forever be my little boy, the one that brought so much joy into my life. Sweet Dreams and Sleep Well......Love, Mom October 20, 2008


Michelle McgaryOctober 15, 2008 @ 9:46 pm

I've been trying to think of something to say to express my gratitude, but can't come up with anything except thank you. That just doesn't seem like enough. It's been a year now since my daddy had his transplant and I cannot believe how he has bounced back. Before the transplant, he just wasn't himself, he didn't have his laugh, he wasn't up running around like a madman doing different things, he didn't have his zest for life. Now, it's like he's 30 again (I bet he wishes he was), he's back to his old self, into working on cars, doing things with the fire department and most of all that laugh is back!! And the best thing of all is I have my daddy back. Thank you just doesn't seem good enough at all but it's all I can come up with. Kristopher, you truly are an angel, I pray every night that you are up there watching down over everyone and I pray that your family is safe. I guess the only problem I have with all this is that my dad seems to have a liking for Ford Mustangs now. I fondly remember when I wasn't allowed to park anything aside from a Chevy at his house!!! So being as much of a diehard Chevy fan (which he made me into) as he is, it's disturbing that he likes those Mustangs!!! I believe my mom told me Kristopher was a fan of the Mustang too, so I guess dad got that from him. I keep Kristopher's picture with me and I also keep one in a frame in our house, I will never forget him and will be forever grateful. Again, thank you, I know it's not much, but it's all I can come up with. You are forever in my prayers


BrendaOctober 13, 2008 @ 10:54 pm

Dear Kris,

Well, we made it through! I hope you saw all of the balloons floating higher and higher. We laughed and cried yesterday. I must've visited your website a million times yesterday and just when I sat down in front of the computer for the final time something in my mind told me to "Go check the Living Legacy Site!. I was so surprised to see that the annual 2007 report was finally up on the site. To be honest with you I had forgotten that they had called me a few months back to get permission to use my letter and picture's from the site on their report. What a wonderful surprise it was for me to see you on there. I played it over and over. Probably will for a long time to come too. Sometimes I try to imagine what you are seeing and doing in Heaven. I know that you are still here with us so maybe this is Heaven and we don't even realize it! Heaven may just be our world only perfect.....no saddness, loneliness, etc. I think all we have to do is BELIEVE. Kris, you are always on my mind and forever in my heart. They say that if you look into someone's eyes you can see into their soul.....when I look into your eyes I see a beautiful soul....a soul at peace.........I will always love.....Mom


MelissaOctober 13, 2008 @ 10:18 pm

Well Kris it is the day after your one year anniversary. You were all in our thoughts and prayers and always will be. It is so hard to believe that you have been gone a year. It was definately bittersweet at the grave sight. Ethan didn't want to send his balloon off to you but after he kissed it he let it go. Your headstone is beautiful. Mom and Dad make sure it stays real clean. Amy even helped wash it when we were there. Please watch over everyone as this is especially a hard time of year. Hope you saw the balloons cause they just kept floating and floating. We all love and miss you always!!! Love, Missy xoxoxoxoxo


RandyOctober 13, 2008 @ 10:39 am

Dear Kris,

It's so hard to believe that it's already been one year. I still remember the phone call we received that night. The fear, anxiety, all the emotions that were going through our minds of not exactly knowing what happened. It's really amazing how many peoples lives you've touched. I really miss having you around, I feel as if I have lost a brother as well. I look back at all those good times we had back in Tennessee, when you would come down for the summer, like that big grin on your face when you won those prizes at that catfish tournament.


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